Miscarriage, Milestones, and the Freedom of Falling Apart

The sorority sister who died, the boyfriend who couldn’t decide, the interviews that tanked, the roommates that moved out married, the deployment that wrecked our honeymoon years, the months we thought we’d be pregnant but weren’t, and this most recent grief of pregnancy lost, these turned out to be the sweetest times of my life.

The moments I never would have chosen for myself were the exact moments that Jesus leaned in and spoke loudest, “I choose you. You are mine. Stay with me.” Continue reading Miscarriage, Milestones, and the Freedom of Falling Apart

If You’re Anxious and You Know It, Raise Your Hand!

You know who the worst party pooper of all is? Anxiety. I need to confess right here on the internet that I’ve said ‘no’ to and cancelled so many dinners and coffees over the past several months because I was ‘sick’ aka anxious. Potential relationships ruined, mentoring opportunities missed out on, precious time with friends gone….Don’t let anxiety get you alone in a dark alley of your mind and beat you up….Darkness loses its power when it’s brought into the light. Shine a spotlight on it, and let’s all get a little more free. Continue reading If You’re Anxious and You Know It, Raise Your Hand!

Back to School

It’s hard to prioritize when you are a full-time student, friend, daughter, girlfriend/fiancé/wife, worker, intern, etc. There are countless opportunities wanting your attention and wanting your time, but you must decide what will be the most important.
Jesus exceeds our expectations, provides for our needs, and fulfills our desires. Christ alone can provide the satisfaction and joy we so desperately seek. Continue reading Back to School

Silver Linings

“Life is not a straight line leading from one blessing to the next and then finally to heaven. Life is a winding and troubled road. Switchback after switchback. And the point of biblical stories like Joseph and Job and Esther and Ruth is to help us feel in our bones (and not just know in our heads) that God is for us in all these strange turns. God is not just showing up after the trouble and cleaning it up. He is plotting the course and managing the troubles with far-reaching purposes for our good and the glory of Jesus Christ.”

John Piper Continue reading Silver Linings

Motherhood, Design, & New Life

I extend endless effort to feel self-sufficient but the truth is that I am the same as my helpless babe wedged in the corner of her crib. If it weren’t for my God putting breath into my lungs every morning or pumping blood through my heart I could not live. We like to pretend as if we weren’t, but the truth is we are all just as fragile as newborns. It is beautiful to think that God designed motherhood in such a way that it parallels His love and devotion to us. It provides such relief to know that as I fumble my way through this new journey, there is a God I can trust for the satisfaction of my soul and the soul of my daughter. Continue reading Motherhood, Design, & New Life